2025 into 2026 reflection

Time flies….and I really don’t like it!

In one sense, college seems like a whole life ago…but when I think of memories in that time, it feels like yesterday. Some moments I wish I could time travel back to and just stay in. But unfortunately we can’t do that. Time keeps ticking…the sun and moon doesn’t stop, and each year comes and goes quicker then the next.

Everyone says it just gets worse and I am not ready for that…for time to go even faster. So how do we make it “stop” or more accurately…. slow down?

I remember days….most often on a trip somewhere or on a roadtrip where time did feel slow. And I wondered why that was….

Looking back the connection between those memories, times, and moments was that I was truly living in the moment. I wasn’t worried about the next day, or the next deadline, where I was going to be or what I was going to do the following day. Instead I was in the moment with the person I was with and I loved it!!

This year has had its ups and downs. Things I thought and hoped would happen that didn’t, acknowledgement and affirmation in my music I didn’t expect to ever get, challenges and emotions I didn’t know I’d feel or have to go through, new explorations of my art, paralysis in it as well, grey days that seemed to never end, and sunny days that filled me with so much joy and gratitude. It was a total mix of emotions, experiences, and revelations….some that cut deep and hurt and others that lightened me and gave me hope.

When you are young you think things look so easy when you get older….but honestly I think its the opposite. Things get a bit more complicated and harder. But they also make you appreciate and value things more, and realize what is truly important and what you really want.

A few years ago I thought I wanted one thing…or maybe 5, but as I have gotten older, and especially in this last year. My ideas and thoughts have shifted a bit.

Shifted back to the girl on her roadtrip with her best friend in 2021. To the girl who lived in each moment and wasn’t always chasing for the next thing and living ahead of each day.

While its great to chase things and have goals to achieve…its important to enjoy the journey. And while I have, I wish I have more. They say hindsight is 20 20…so I have taken all I have learned and am using that to make this next year that much better. I am thankful for all 2025 brought me and taught me. For all the struggles, heartache, and loneliness I felt, and on the contrary for the joy, newness, life, and new friends who have been such a blessing.

In it all I have grown and been challenged…I have written music and started projects I never thought I would, and I have journeyed back to a part of me I didn’t lose but simply lost sight of.

So in this new year…I am excited to share more of me. The deep and genuine side of me! The part that makes me who I am and who led me to my art in the first place. I want to take you back to the beginning of my artistic journey and how it has evolved.

In 2026 I hope to learn and grow a lot more….explore new places, push myself to what I know is possible and not hold myself back, and really appreciate all the little things, and the special people in my life.

This year I will be more open and honest.

I will go for what I really want and not be shamed of being bold about it.

I will stop to smell the flowers more.

I will take deeper breathes and slow down.

I will be more disciplined with my time and not waste it on useless social media that so easily traps you.

I will find where my heart and soul belong and go there.

I will be hopeful and stay open.

I will be more grateful for all I have and not take a moment for granted.

I will live more purposefully and get back to my mission of helping others in any way I can.

I will get back to my free spirit hippie girl self :)

I will make more art and get back to my poetry and painting!

I will be me through and through <3